I was 26 years old when my body failed me for the first time.

I’m sure that seems dramatic, but that’s how it felt to me. I was a new, first-time mom, overwhelmed with caring for this precious newborn, and trying to figure out my new normal.

Turns out, my new normal was extreme anxiety and panic attacks. My OB brushed me off and blamed it on being a new mother, so I went undiagnosed with Postpartum Anxiety for 7 months.

That started my journey of doctor after doctor, practitioner after practitioner, protocol after protocol. I even became certified as an Integrative Health Practitioner to help myself because I felt so let down by everyone else.

The symptoms persisted, sometimes they were better, and sometimes they got worse. But I began noticing one thing- my health really declined after stressful periods of my life.

What if the root of the issues wasn’t physical at all? What if I wasn’t broken? What if the chronic stress and the way my body was handling it was actually what was causing my symptoms?

So I enrolled in a brain retraining program.

I did improve, but I found it difficult to stick with because it was repetitive, so while I was able to keep what I learned, I didn’t fully recover. A couple years later I tried another nervous system program, and while it was much more in-depth, I found it really complicated to follow along with. Brain fog is no joke, and a DIY program was really too complex for me to figure out how to use.

I was able to find another program in October of 2022 that had the hand-holding that I needed. It was exactly what was missing from the other programs for me. It had daily assignments that were small enough to handle, and it made it easy to make a habit out of them. In fact, 9 months after graduating I still have those daily habits because they were so helpful! It also incorporated something that was very new to me- German New Medicine.

I began to learn all about how traumas affect the body and how the body responds to protect.

It made so much sense, and every symptom that I had lined up with the timeline of the original conflict. But it wasn’t just finding out what caused the symptoms, I had to do deep work.

I healed from chronic illness by learning how to be aware of my subconscious thoughts. I had to learn how to change my perception around those thoughts. I had to learn how to take responsibility for myself, my choices, and where I ended up. I had to learn to stop controlling other people, because it doesn’t work. I had to learn that the only thing I can control is myself- my thoughts, actions, and perceptions. I had to learn how to set boundaries to allow my body to feel safe. I had to learn how to stop fearing my symptoms, and living in fear in general. And I did all of this without supplements.

Essentially- I had to become a new person. Because the person that I was is the one who got sick. Her thoughts, reactions, and perceptions were what got me sick to begin with. Changing who I was through all of these different avenues is what allowed me to begin healing.

I healed from chronic illness by unfollowing any account on social media that was spreading fear in any way, shape, or form.

Fear was no longer allowed to infect my life. My goal was peace, and it was so much easier to feel peace and have joy when I wasn’t being constantly inundated with fear on a regular basis. There were several people in my life that did not like that I was cutting out fear, because they were surviving on those stress hormones and felt compelled to share it with me. This work took a lot of sacrifice, but the healing has been worth it.

I began to reassess my practice and realized that I didn’t want to put people on endless protocols anymore. I didn’t want to be the person who was constantly spreading fear and telling people that their food was toxic, their water was toxic, their phone was toxic, their underwear was toxic, their toilet paper was toxic. I wanted to encourage people to make the best choices that they can without being fearful, and to trust their body. So I pivoted my practice and I now offer Mind-Body healing programs and coaching.

I have lost so much fear. I have lost almost 50 pounds. I have lost countless symptoms. And I have lost some relationships.

But I have gained freedom, joy, peace, and so many new memories with my family that I never would have made if I was still bed-bound, suffering from panic attacks, anxiety and agoraphobia.

I healed from chronic illness by learning how to trust that my body knows what it is doing all the time. It is always healing. It is way smarter than I am. If I don’t have to tell it how to heal from a cut on my finger, why would I need to tell it how to heal from anything else?

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