Hope. It’s what gets me through many days, when things feel too hard. Sometimes it seems like it’s the very last thing that I have to hold on to. The kids have had meltdown over meltdown all day, I didn’t sleep well last night, I argued with my husband before he went to work, nobody’s listening to me, I haven’t seen friends in a while, and I feel completely alone. Ever have one of those days? I have them more often than I’d like to admit, for sure. Granted, these problems don’t always all arise on the same day (praise the Lord) but sometimes even one problem can feel enormous if you don’t feel like you have the strength to deal with it.
Y’all, I read an amazing book (Hope Unfolding: Grace-Filled Truth for the Momma’s Heart) recently, and I need to share it with you!*
That’s where the hope comes in. For me, at least. It’s the tiniest glimmer of light that you see at end of a tunnel that is a long, hard day. It’s when your heart feels heavy because you’ve yelled at your kids for the umpteenth time and you feel like the world’s worst mama. But then one of them says something sweet, or hugs you for no reason. In that moment, my heart could explode. I love them so much. Even though they’ve been crazy, and I’ve been so mad… I love them so much. That’s one of the closest experiences to how I assume Jesus feels about us. We throw fits, we have tantrums, and we act like toddlers sometimes (please don’t tell me it’s just me!), and He loves us anyways.
Do you ever find that to be overwhelming? I know that I do. I’m a mess most of the time, so how can the one person who sees ALL OF IT still love me? Wholeheartedly? That’s one of the best things that this book discussed. How there’s nothing that we can do to earn the love of Christ, right? Then how can we think that there is something that would take his love away? So on those days where you feel like there’s a dark cloud following you around, you feel like a too-impatient mama, or a too-tired wife, or a too-boring friend… Jesus is the light at the end of that tunnel too.
Hope Unfolding spoke to my heart. Not just the parts that make me a mama and a wife, but the deep, hidden corners of my heart where a lot of old pain and hurt lives. The parts of me that feel like they’ll never be good enough for anybody. The parts of me that have been rejected, bruised, beaten,and still haven’t healed. Because things shoved away into the darkness don’t heal, do they? Sweet friends, I know exactly how you feel. I know the pain you hide, the fears you face, and the anxiety that keeps you up at night. I know how you doubt your ability to be a good mama, but I promise you that you are. The good thing about doubt is that it is what keeps hope alive. Without doubt, there would be no hope; only certainty.
Ladies, I hope that you pick up this book. It really was incredible, I haven’t read a book that quickly in a long time! Becky just has an amazing way of connecting with you as the reader. You feel like you’re longtime friends, having this deep, honest, judgment free conversation over coffee. I can’t recommend this book enough!
What books have you read that give you hope and speak to your heart?